C: hope I can lose some finally
the working out is key, I think, not the eating so much
eat healthy, don't go nuts, exercise lots
that's my plan
J: what a crazy concept! me too. i have to do both, and concentrate on the diet portion
C: I feel like I'm starving if I concentrate too much on the diet
Primal instinct to survive
J: see, i have this "accidental" eating habit
C: so I'm just trying to establish an exercise habit without eating extra calories to compensate
J: oops, stuffed in four bites of chicken nugget
oops, half a chocolate bar
I actually do okay if left on my own
watching the points helps keep me honest
but I'm not like, "oops, I tripped and accidentally ate a danish pastry."
J: me too. i have to carefully record points
C: I can say no to the pastry
I like me some pastry
but I can deal
what's hard is when I go out or go to someone else's house
I can control my own environment, but when someone else is plopping a pan of lasagne down on the table, well, I'm gonna eat it. It's the law.
J: lol. i can say no too, but i can be talking to B- at the kitchen counter and eat a couple of his doritos before i realize i'm NOT supposed to be eating doritos
C: why do you HAVE the doritos?
J: because. . .
because they're on SALE!!
C: Oh, okay
that's totally all right, then
J: I need to stop buying shit
C: you ok?
J: (sobbing softly)
C: pat pat